January.
My new year really started yesterday not on the first as it has done for the last few years. The work-pattern precludes normal Christmas and New Year holidays, so I mentally start on the first available Monday. I’d like to look back at the last year with fondness, but to be quite honest apart from a couple of things, it was shit. I didn’t have any money, there was virtually no work around and the house still didn’t sell. The only saving grace was the decision to marry the Short Brunette, as she was then. A decision that wasn’t taken lightly, or in haste, but one which I’ve had no reason to regret. Her 5’ of bubblyness drives me through each day in a way that I couldn’t quite have imagined.
This brings us to today. I don’t really buy into all the new year = new start crap. The date is just a marker point; a filing system for Westerners. A change where everyone joins a gym and makes promises to themselves that they have broken by the second week of February. I have ideas of what I would like to do this year, but then they are no different to the ideas that I have at any other time of the year. I need to work a bit more and make a bit more money (according to government markers I am living below the poverty-line). I wasn’t sure whether I would write anything here again. I’d looked at it over the last couple of weeks and thought not. Again questioning why I am here at all: so much has changed, so many others have changed. Many of the blogs that I read have gone, or in a couple of cases gone private (don’t understand that one). One at least, due to the computer change, I’ve lost the link to. It’s probably still there, I just don’t know where. Most people have stopped blogging altogether or have changed persona. I understand this. It’s a tight fine line that we walk, especially those who open their souls (and occasionally their legs) to the world in a semi-private style. There was a point in time where I would have fallen into that bracket. Now however there isn’t really any need to crouch behind a pseudonym. No longer do I get described as enigmatic as I once did when I trotted out erotica for the thinking woman. I may one day post more of that style of writing or even put up pictures of my cock... but I think it unlikely. (Does anyone actually get off on the cock photos?) The shape of what I write here has changed dramatically, and will probably continue to do so. And as I tend to think after every post... this may be the last thing that I write.